*a not so sweet wonderland*

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not that i enjoy it, but it was carnival after all, and things got a bit "wild"...

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not that i am feeling perky or anything...
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i really should update on the weekend and carnival. but i'm just feeling sad and tired.
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and nostalgic.
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i just feel like warm tea and toast, and a good book. that's all.
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i have a bad feeling about this. life always catches up with us. and i hate not being productive.
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but i'm too tired to care right now.
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blah!
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i'm not ok (i promise).
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even though You try so hard. sorry for being such a load.
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and maybe, it's just my hormones. or the meds. or caffeine withdrawal. or whatever.
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its just NOT Your fault. maybe its mine.
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"Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not

If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry
Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all!

I said yeah, yeah! I said yeah, yeah!
C'mon C'mon C'mon I said(Save me!)
Get me the hell out of here(Save me!)
Too young to die and my dear(You can't!)
If you can hear me just walk away and(Take me!)"

(The End - My Chemical Romance)
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i wish i didn't feel so... emo.
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if i weren't so lazy (and so fat) i'd bake me a cake.
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alas, comfort food.
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